Monday, December 07, 2009

All I Want For Christmas Is For Things To Do Their Job

I have been crying for the past two and a half hours.

No one is sick.

No one is dying.

Nothing has happened that can't be dealt with.

But I am so, so sad.

The lovely people at Drive Savers called me this afternoon to inform me that my hard drive (yes, we are talking about that again) has indeed died a very painful death. A painful, excruciating, horrifyingly awful death. And to revive it from it's pitiful plight, all we have to do is shell out $1800-$2400.

And so I am sad because I don't have $2000 laying around before Christmas (or any other time for that matter) And the idea of paying for something that I already own kills me. And I hate that the whole purpose of a hard drive is to save your stuff and our hard drive did not do it's job.

But the real clincher? The thing that keeps making my stomach churn and my eyes well up? All those lovely and not-so-lovely pictures of my kids are locked away in some little box and I don't know if I'll ever see them again. Birthday parties and trips to the coast and family reunions and lost teeth. And every moment that we've managed to capture in the day to day, the quiet, beautiful moments that sometimes present themselves just right that we managed to capture.

They are all gone.

And I can't stop crying about it.

So yes, while I do know that this isn't the worst thing to happen to someone BY FAR, I'm giving myself permission to cry for the rest of the day. To be sad about the beautiful images that have been lost and try to remember every single one. And hope that the some feisty little Christmas fairy will appear on my door with my hard drive intact.

14 comments:

Shayla said...

So, so sorry Karen! I was really hoping for hard drive miracles on your behalf. It just isn't fair (stomping foot in frustration)! I would totally cry all day, too. Maybe all week...

Amy said...

When we first moved to washington, we left our car door unlocked (naiive from living in Utah I guess). The first night we moved in someone stole our stereo, jeff's scriptures, and our camera. Our camera with pictures of Henry crawling for the first time. Charlie's preschool graduation that I filmed cuz Jeff couldn't be there. Lots of memories and I was sick about it forever. It still makes me mad. So I feel your pain, I do. And I have no words of comfort because it is a terrible feeling to have lost tangible evidence of our best memories. I will just hope and pray that you receive your Christmas miracle.

lindsay>boo said...

I'm so so sorry. No doubt about it. That stinks.

AOlson said...

Oh that really stinks Karen. So sorry. Go ahead and cry tomorrow too.

Lisa said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I've always worried about something like this happening to ours.
Can you save the hard drive for a future repair? Maybe when you are 'older' and have $2,000 to spend on it? Or after one of your children becomes a computer specialist and can fix it for you? (Better late than never?)

vwbabe said...

That sucks. I teared up just reading this post. I have no idea what I would do in that same situation. It is horrible. I like Lisa's idea though, save it for when you do have an extra couple thousand laying around.

LindaR said...

Be thankful you still have your memory so you can remember all those good times. Write about them and you'll have the mental images that will only go away when you turn 60.

Kelly said...

I'd be crying too. I'm so sorry.
Maybe you should think about getting a second opinion from another computer geek source? Why on earth should it cost so much? I have no doubt you'll have those snapshots back in your posession soon.

Sarah said...

I'd be crying too. That is so sad. I will hope for some kind or miracle for you too.

Heather said...

So sad. This happened to us a few years ago... It's ok to cry, but then you need to run out and buy and external hard drive so you never go through this again.

dandee said...

oh, man. I think I might cry too.

Mimi said...

I would cry, in fact I want to cry for you. I am really sorry. I am going to gather every picture I have of your family and get them to you. They may not include milestones, but I do have some that I think will help.

Trevor and Sara said...

Karen, I am so very sorry. I cannot believe this happened. If I were you, I would just do it. You can make the money back and without the computer you can't have your pictures back. It sucks, I know. I am very, very sorry.

Michele said...

The place that fixed ours is called Northerspeed. The number is
208-765-8324. I would give them a call and see what they say. At the very least, you could bring it over after I have the baby and have them look at it. They are very fast and have excellent reviews online.