Have You Seen Me Today?

Dear Austin,

You have been pulling extra hard on this mama's heartstrings lately.  From tears at preschool to the grip around my neck, not wanting me to let you go, you've made my heart swell with love.

And here's the thing:  I know I'm not supposed to smile at the sight of those tears or the feel of your grip but I do. I do because it means that for now, you still want me above all else and that does this mama heart good.  To know that I'm the one who can comfort you, I'm the one you want to spend your time with, I'm the one who gets to do all the cuddles and reading time, the tucking in and snuggling close means the world to me because I'm also the one who knows that it will end before I"ll ever be ready for it to. 

When people first meet you, they comment on your perfectly imperfect gate-tail face, your bright eyes and huge smile and the charm that pours out of you.  They mention what a little lover you are and that you probably always get what your heart desires because of all your glorious you-ness. 

And they are right. Because you do.  And you are.  And I love it so.  And I don't feel bad about saying that one of the things that I love the best about you is knowing that I'm at the top of your list. 

You are certainly at the top of mine.

Love,
Mama