Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Middle School Revelations Or What Happens When You Have Nothing Else To Do

Today finds me at the local middle school.  Which means I have some time on my hands as these little critters write summaries about the Sumerians and Mesopatamia. 

(Note:  so glad I'm out of middle school.)

Since I've found myself with extra time and my options are limited, I've been reading through some of my archives.  It's funny how I can pick a post written long ago and immediately be transported back to that time, that moment when the words I chose to write were so important and necessary.  I remember the frustrations, the feelings of overwhelming love and happiness, the minutia of my life as each post was written.  It is the best possible reminder of the life I'm living.

So why have my visits to this space become more and more sporadic?  Why do I spend my time with other things instead of recording the days of my life?  The stories and funnies and growing upness that is occurring right before my eyes? 

Not sure. 

It feels in some ways that blogging has taken a bit of backseat to the other trappings of social media and I totally get that.  Facebook!  And Pinterest!  And Instagram! 

Oh my. 

And I love those outlets for exactly what they are; ways for me to peek into the lives of those I love and say hi.  I'm guessing like so many of you, they are the relaxing, stress-free minutes you eek out for yourself each day that help you decompress and breathe.  And breathing, the real way and not the life-sustaining way, is one of the most important things we can do for ourselves. 

So I get it. 

But I also get that I started this space as a way to document my life and the lives of my Love and my Littles and I have loved reading back on the days that we've had, both the good and the bad that I chose to document here.  My comments on Facebook will long be forgotten but the stories that I share about who did what and the pictures I use will last a lifetime. 

Yes, the comments have dwindled.  The followers have stopped following.  But if my intention is to record my life, none of that should matter.  And I think I let it matter more than it should have. 

So I'm holding myself accountable.  I'm setting a goal for myself of weekly posting and I'm going to do my darndest to reach it.  I'd love to have you along for the journey but if not, that's ok too.  This space is for me and I'm ready to reclaim it. 


Amy said...

Jeff and I were just talking about this last night. He likes to post pictures to Facebook-I rarely do because I like to blog.But it's the blog that my kids read and will remember. It's the blog that has a journal like entry accompanying it. That said, it gets overwhelming to think of it as something on my to do list. And when I spend 5 months feeling sorry for myself, I let go of things on my to do list. I'm trying to pick it up again, and not worry about if anyone is reading it. And just hoping it will mean something to my kids someday. I also love re-reading old posts and being so grateful that I wrote about it, cuz I know I would forget about many small things in our lives otherweise.

Melanie said...

comments are nice too though, right?

It is nice to know I'm not the only one who loves clicking back through my blog to relive those memories.

I'm glad to see you will be posting more:)

Megan said...

I have had these very same thoughts recently. Postings are sporadic at best at my house and yet the other night when we were trying to remember when one of the kids did a certain something, I just looked back on the blog and there it was! Then I read and remembered and laughed a little and cried a little...
I'm going to be better too. The purpose is still here.

PRP said...

yay! maybe we're starting a blogging revolution....

And yes, comments are nice too. :)

Cathy said...

I so agree! I miss writing in my little blog and I LOVE reading those of the people I love. Can't wait to read more from you, and I hope it inspires me to do better myself.

Kelly said...

Just so you know, I have never stopped checking in on your blog. It's a favorite and I'm glad to see you will keep it going! As a side note... I am soooo glad not to be in middle school anymore too. That was an awful, awkward, and confusing time!

Tracy said...

I too am very happy you will be writing again. I do check too, regularly. :) For us less talented writers (like me) I love reading a good blog and yours is one of the best. Plus i get to catch up with you and the family when time just doesn't allow us to get together because of our busy schedules.