It was one of those days when you feel the mantle of motherhood pressing firmly down on your shoulders, weighing you down with all the have-to's and take-care-of's. It was a thankless day of doing the stuff that mothers do and by the time I plopped on the couch once my babes were quiet in their beds, I felt a bit sad that this is what my life is all about.
Washing everyone's sheets and making their beds again. Mowing the lawn. Cleaning the bathrooms. Tending to a very sick Sienna. Up and down the stairs, over and over again. Pushing Austin in the swing. Folding the laundry. Cleaning out the freezer. Cleaning the bathroom again after Sienna's illness caught up with her. It was the same thing over and over and yet a million different chores that kept me busy.
And I find, on days like that, that it can be hard to remember why I chose this life to begin with. I have talents and skills and things to offer that seemingly get lost as I busy myself mothering. Wasn't I made to do more than clean sheets? Isn't there something else I can be doing to contribute to the greater good? Shouldn't I have more a of purpose?
And then today, while making granola bars with Austin as my sous chef, and getting frustrated with his overly eager helping hands, I remembered why I chose this life. Because for Sienna, the biggest part of her feeling better was knowing that I was there. And for Austin, his time in the swing with all of my attention will help him to grow up feeling loved. And for Brad, sinking into a freshly made bed after an exhausting day of 150 teenagers and hours at the duplex, knowing that I thought of him in the midst of my busy and wanted to make his night restful. For my family, showing them that cleanliness really is next to godliness and that it's important to take care of what we have. And for me, because they are what I have. And they are everything. Taking care of them allows me to be my very best me. Raising them right will contribute to the greater good. Being their mother is my purpose. They allow my talents to shine.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.
But I sure would enjoy a good parade.